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Thursday, May 19, 2011
Don't know its me or what Or time , once again a variable factor, easy to blame everything on. I guess it was just all MY fault -- will be moving on to tumblr. guess stoicnez may be abandoned for good. xD memories shall be left behind. Wednesday, May 18, 2011 Death is a taboo , a topic many wouldn't like to discuss about. When we were young, we were taught by our parents , " When you see a funeral going on at the void deck, don't walk past it and don't look at it. " Ah well, a few days ago I had to experience being in a funeral. It was my first and i very much wish for it to be my last. However, when there is life, there is death. I guess I'd still attend many more funerals in time to come. :/  My ah gong/grandfather passed away on the Saturday, 14th May , 3.27pm :/ He was a strong man, despite his old age of 97, he was determined to fight against cancer. But things weren't going fine for him, the odds of him recovering was slimmer as days passed by because. the cancer cells had spread throughout his whole body. It was on the thursday, where the doctor said my ah gong's kidney has failed, and cannot inject that water thingy into him :( thats when we mentally knew he would be gone sooner or later. T_T  this was taken during last wednesday. he couldnt talk anymore but he could nod when we spoke into his ears.   the funeral thingy, his favourite suit was hunged on the chair :(  didnt sleep for 3 nights in a row , just to constantly burn gold incense paper in this metal dish as claimed by the taoist priest, this ensures my ah gong has lots of money to spend up there. also , i folded many ingots out of gold incense paper. we had to fold 15 bags full of ingots , and 1 bag is like.. close to a thousand ingots lor :/  then we burnt a big house together paper cars and all our ingots on the night before the cremation. today was the cremation and it was depressing. the moment the coffin was closed up, and into the cremation thingy the coffin went. can't help but feel a sense of sorrowness. remorse started kicking in too. i remember when i was young i would accompany my ah gong many times . i would go to my aunts house and he would carry me up , then he would always say " da pi gu da pi gu " and pat my ass gently. he was really fun to play with, a pity that when i was in secondary school i took his presence for granted. his age never really mattered me, i always thought he could live long. it only struck to me that life is very unpredictable. before he was hospitalised, that week before my mom and i visited him to give him a box of pens. because we heard that he was interested in doodling that time, so we thought that pen might make him happy. mann :/ my 2 greatest regrets are :
 ah well. wherever you are now ah gong. i hope you're fine and happier . the pain has ended, hasn't it? Saturday, May 14, 2011 TIME IS A SILENT KILLER THAT KILLS YOU SILENTLY. /dies Friday, May 6, 2011 Meh, time flies very fast, it's already week 4 of school! that means ( if you can count ) , a month has passed. what a blast yeah xD school isn't exactly fun , the workload that's given is diminishing every possible glim of fun. and the agony i experience.. ah well. but im going to pluck myself upp!!! I won't give up towards anything. :3 Wednesday, May 4, 2011 37.5 Degrees . Hello , hello . Been long since i typed any stuff into here ! Summary about my days and thoughts
So yeah. will blog when i feel like it. hope i get better and sort thoughts out. |
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